Ramblings....
As we are going through the week of Prayer and Fasting at our church, so much is going through my mind - and I am waiting for it to begin to come into formation - for at the present moment, it feels like a lot of loose ended thoughts, which somehow do go together.
Here are some areas God is speaking to me - some profound insights I am coming to and some books and messages that are influencing my thoughts.
I tend to give up when something gets hard. I believe I am in the season of pushing through - at least learning what that looks like. Emma explained to me that when a team of horses are pulling together a heavy load, and you add more of a load, the horses just pull harder. I am in a season where I am learning to pull harder, with the team, instead of stopping pulling!
Ken Davis recently preached a sermon called Fully Alive - which I have listened to 2 times and will probably listen to again.
http://www.willowcreek.org/
http://www.willowcreek.org/mediaplayer/playeropener.aspx?id=249&cid=3
In it he talks about being fully ALIVE! At the end of 2010, I most certainly was not fully alive. Discouraged, overweight, and feeling beaten down!
I feel like I have grown so much over the past year - grown spiritually, grown in forgiveness and understanding - but something is still keeping me down, from enjoying my life the way I know I can.
I want to DANCE freely before the Lord - I want to run a 5k race with Brian- you know - I have realized that my weight is holding me back. It is stealing my LIFE! I don't often watch the show, The Biggest Loser, but I did this week. There was a set of twin brothers, in there 50 or 60's and quite overweight. The doctor had done some tests and told the one brother - "If you knew that someone was planning your brothers murder and murder weapon was known what would you do about it?"
Obviously, the answer is - do everything possible to avoid it.
Well, the doctor laid out the murder weapon - white sugar, chocolate, chips.....
I started the Biggest Loser at the Steffy Concrete Fitness Farm last Wednesday evening. I weighed in at an all time high - never been here before in my life, except for pregnancy.
I am a week in to a 16 week excersize program - and I so excited to see what God is going to do!
3 pounds came off in the last week and I am shooting for 3 more for this week. I have chosen to fast in a different way by eliminating white sugar and other stuff of that nature- since I have been exerting myself at the gym more than I have in a long time.
I already feel better - my mind feels more clear. The temptation still comes - and I am crying out to God for his hand of deliverance to walk me through the times when my body wants more food - or food it does not need. What a challenge - but I am not giving up. I am so excited to have two very close friends of mine join me in the Biggest Loser challenge - they will be a tremendous support along the way as they do it too.
And my family! They are my biggest cheerleaders! I have paper thermometer on my fridge that Mary Jane made for me - and we will mark off every pound I lose.
When something stops growing, it has stopped living....
I acknowlege this journey will not be easy - but I AM ALIVE! AND I AM HEADED TO FULLY ALIVE!
I could use any phone calls, notes or words of encouragement as I walk this next 15 week journey - in making huge change. My prayer is that I can learn contentment in LESS! I want my body to adjust to the fact that less food is enough to supply the needs of my body. Come Lord Jesus and consume the chaff - the excess and unnessary. I want to be refined in the fire!
My desire for 2011 is that I may learn what it looks like to live my life FULLY ALIVE!
Here are some areas God is speaking to me - some profound insights I am coming to and some books and messages that are influencing my thoughts.
I tend to give up when something gets hard. I believe I am in the season of pushing through - at least learning what that looks like. Emma explained to me that when a team of horses are pulling together a heavy load, and you add more of a load, the horses just pull harder. I am in a season where I am learning to pull harder, with the team, instead of stopping pulling!
Ken Davis recently preached a sermon called Fully Alive - which I have listened to 2 times and will probably listen to again.
http://www.willowcreek.org/
http://www.willowcreek.org/mediaplayer/playeropener.aspx?id=249&cid=3
In it he talks about being fully ALIVE! At the end of 2010, I most certainly was not fully alive. Discouraged, overweight, and feeling beaten down!
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| My family at Rehoboth Beach, December 2010 |
I feel like I have grown so much over the past year - grown spiritually, grown in forgiveness and understanding - but something is still keeping me down, from enjoying my life the way I know I can.
I want to DANCE freely before the Lord - I want to run a 5k race with Brian- you know - I have realized that my weight is holding me back. It is stealing my LIFE! I don't often watch the show, The Biggest Loser, but I did this week. There was a set of twin brothers, in there 50 or 60's and quite overweight. The doctor had done some tests and told the one brother - "If you knew that someone was planning your brothers murder and murder weapon was known what would you do about it?"
Obviously, the answer is - do everything possible to avoid it.
Well, the doctor laid out the murder weapon - white sugar, chocolate, chips.....
I started the Biggest Loser at the Steffy Concrete Fitness Farm last Wednesday evening. I weighed in at an all time high - never been here before in my life, except for pregnancy.
I am a week in to a 16 week excersize program - and I so excited to see what God is going to do!
3 pounds came off in the last week and I am shooting for 3 more for this week. I have chosen to fast in a different way by eliminating white sugar and other stuff of that nature- since I have been exerting myself at the gym more than I have in a long time.
I already feel better - my mind feels more clear. The temptation still comes - and I am crying out to God for his hand of deliverance to walk me through the times when my body wants more food - or food it does not need. What a challenge - but I am not giving up. I am so excited to have two very close friends of mine join me in the Biggest Loser challenge - they will be a tremendous support along the way as they do it too.
And my family! They are my biggest cheerleaders! I have paper thermometer on my fridge that Mary Jane made for me - and we will mark off every pound I lose.
When something stops growing, it has stopped living....
I acknowlege this journey will not be easy - but I AM ALIVE! AND I AM HEADED TO FULLY ALIVE!
I could use any phone calls, notes or words of encouragement as I walk this next 15 week journey - in making huge change. My prayer is that I can learn contentment in LESS! I want my body to adjust to the fact that less food is enough to supply the needs of my body. Come Lord Jesus and consume the chaff - the excess and unnessary. I want to be refined in the fire!
My desire for 2011 is that I may learn what it looks like to live my life FULLY ALIVE!
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