Relationships that matter
Yesterday Allan talked about relationships that matter. One of those relationships that I have is with my Grandma Weaver. She has always been supportive of me. I talked to Deb Weinhold on Friday night - and she was talking about bonding - some of her children are adopted - the ones that came to them later in life had a difficult time bonding to them - and trusting them. One adopted son, they got as a baby - he has had no attachment problems! She proceeded to say that she has a special bond with Shiloh - her little grandson - because when his mama was deathly ill, she became his caregiver - she made a special point to help him be secure and become bonded to her - who was providing care for him. Today, he still has a difficult time distinguishing between her as Mom, or Grandma - now that Davina, his mom is better and a part of his life again.
I had to think - I guess that is kind of what happened with my grandma and us kids - she was the one steady and consistent person in our life all the years mom was sick - when mom was in and out of the hospital - we were often at Grandma's house. I have just as many memories of time at Grandma's house as I do of time at our own home. And I have a special bond with my grandma.
I guess that is why it is so hard for me to let her go. She is not feeling well - she has been declining in health for the past year - it was Easter Sunday last year that I spent in the hospital with her - thinking she was dying. Now this morning my aunt Velma called to let me know that Grandma is not feeling well. She is just getting weaker - she thought I'd like to know.
It has been hard for me to balance my life of 4 kids and a husband and still get visits in to these special people in my life. I am frustrated this morning because one of my kids are home not feeling well. So - that limits me from picking up and going there right now.
God's grace is sufficient for me - his power is made perfect in my weakness. I am asking for his wisdom and that he will make his power perfect in my weakness.
I had to think - I guess that is kind of what happened with my grandma and us kids - she was the one steady and consistent person in our life all the years mom was sick - when mom was in and out of the hospital - we were often at Grandma's house. I have just as many memories of time at Grandma's house as I do of time at our own home. And I have a special bond with my grandma.
I guess that is why it is so hard for me to let her go. She is not feeling well - she has been declining in health for the past year - it was Easter Sunday last year that I spent in the hospital with her - thinking she was dying. Now this morning my aunt Velma called to let me know that Grandma is not feeling well. She is just getting weaker - she thought I'd like to know.
It has been hard for me to balance my life of 4 kids and a husband and still get visits in to these special people in my life. I am frustrated this morning because one of my kids are home not feeling well. So - that limits me from picking up and going there right now.
God's grace is sufficient for me - his power is made perfect in my weakness. I am asking for his wisdom and that he will make his power perfect in my weakness.
I know...my grandma is 94 and now that we don't live just up the road I don't see her but 3 times a year. I'm just always conscious of not bringing germs (and somebody is always sick it seems!) and so on. thanks for the reminder that I need to plan a time to go visit!
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